Of Sobriety

First of all, let me say I'm no heavy drinker. Eversince that one ugly night when I discovered my poor tolerance for hard liquor, I delighted myself in beer. And Margarita, which acts as a placebo to me. And Erg, vodka plus guarana. That's it.

In preparation for my Nursing Licensure Examination, I stopped drinking. If I didn't get wildly drunk for two crazy nights last June, I might not have resolved to stop. And if it wasn't scientifically proven that beer destroys neurons, I might have dealed with the pressure and tension of the NLE by drinking.

For five months, I was sober. No beer. No Margarita. No Erg. Nada.

Immediately, I felt how good it helped me when I stopped drinking. No more "I-wanna-forget-last-night" dilemmas. No more going home in the wee hours of the morning and waking up too early with a feeling of having a huge head. More savings. More emotional control. More completely wonderful night-outs that weren't partially drowned with alcohol. I felt great.

But I couldn't say that in those five months, I strayed away from temptation. Hell no. When I went out with my non-Nursing friends. They party hard and drink ice cold beer from the bottle. Sometimes I just wanna snatch the bottle off their hands and gulp the beer down to the last drop. Or when I'm feeling the "blues", I just wanna run to Manang's Sari-Sari Store and finish a whole grande by myself.

Yes, I stuck to my resolution. Until last night. Teeheee. =)

I had one, two, three, four 500 ml bottles. On my fourth bottle, I was laughing boisterously, spilling some beans that I never should have. Walking mindlessly from one area to another. Talking. Leaving my shoe behind. Talking some more. Smiling without any reason. At the end of the night, my head was sore.

And as I woke up today, the headache got worse. With which, I realized, God I feel way better when I wasn't drinking. I know, masarap talaga ang beer pero hindi masaya malasing ng sobra. At magkahang-over. Heck.

I know that this could very well pass as a testimonial for Alcoholics Anonymous pero naaaah. No resolutions for now. Just realizations.

SHOT!

Nung Isang Araw..

Dito kami pumunta. Hindi yan sa France. Hindi rin yan sa bakuran namin. Kahit mukha siyang lumot, hindi yan lumot.

Ito ang soccer field ng Agro, dito sa Davao City. Hindi ko alam kung anong hangin ang pumasok sa utak ko at bigla kong naisipang sumama sa mga kaibigan kong si Mamu (yung nasa litrato), Esme, at Leah. Bitbit ang aking camera, bumuntot ako sa kanila at inaliw ang sarili sa kakapindot ng aking camera. Ansayaaaa. Langit na ba ito inay?

Masaya mag-ikot-ikot sa Davao pag gabi, lalo na ngayong malapit na ang Pasko. Kahit hindi gaanong gumagastos ang siyudad para sa paglalagay ng magagarbong ilaw, may iba namang establishments na nagtiyagang magkabit ng pandagdag atraksyon. Tulad nalang ng Marco Polo Davao. Tuwing December, pinaka-inaabangan ang kanilang dakilang Christmas Tree na naka-paskil sa pader. Manghang-mangha ako sa nagdesign ng Christmas Tree na yun, napakapantay ng bawat angle. Paano niya kaya yun ginawa? Ginamitan ng malaking protractor? Higanteng tape measure? Wala lang, ang galing talaga.

Binalita kahapon sa local news na sinindihan na raw ang mga ilaw sa Rizal Park. Aha. Mapasyalan nga.

Bagong Blog, Bagong Pag-asa

I just finished my four-year Bachelor's Degree in Nursing. Toiled so hard for it. Then, worked my way through completions. Next, reviewed earnestly for the Board Exams. Finally, I took the dreaded test last December 1 and 2, 2007. Come December 3, I woke up asking myself, "Holy crap. What's next?"

I realized how I have been living with a fast-paced life the past years. Though I procrastinate a lot, my days were still filled with at least ten things to do for myself or my career or whatsoever. And suddenly, the To-Do list has fallen short. I ran out of things to cram on. I don't know where to go. I have grown, yes. But it stopped. It's a plateau phase, I suppose. And perhaps some BSN graduate is also experiencing the same crisis as mine.

And with this, I made a new list. Something to do when you have nothing else to do. Who knows, this might just work for you guys. And here it is.

• clean my room (check)


• edit my inaamag na Friendster profile (check)


• upload pictures on my Multiply site (check check)


• take pictures (cheeeeeeck)


• find a job and earn money (this, i'm wildly procrastinating on)


• learn a new skill. In my case, learn how to cook (mygulay, there are two maids here and it's so masikip in the kusina, but if there's a will, there's a way!)


• fix the bookshelf (I hoarded too many books during the review haha)


• do the endless sit-on-the-couch-and-stare-at-the-television cycle (equals me being a pig)


• exercise!!! (when I get the motivation, I will, I will.)


• build a new blogsite (Awwwwww. Exactly what I am doing now.)

There are around seven items that I haven't done yet, and it's all because I'm still procrastinating about these things. Haha. But soon, I will. I will. Really will.

Well, looking forward for better days! It will get better, I swear. =)

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